I love you, Im so crazy.
Its so clear, yet so hard alone, here, with you over there.
I remember watching you drive by a long time ago, writing poems about how i wished i could be your friend. Alot has happened since then, i realize that you are the one i met on a phone chat, i fell so in love with you on the fone, and left my crazy broken world to find you in a foreign land, but when i got to you, it wasnt you.
Then i saw you one day at the bay, i was high and crazy and on a death ride. You were there and i swear i was so lost i didnot even see you. I remember painting a picture of you on my wall, naked you were, holding your hands to the sky as if to say Look it is I, look can you see? its me, but i just got high, and let you slip on by.
Now today after all the past week or two or disturbing past months, I realize its just a front, our paths are finding eachother again.
Some times i think that there are two of you, playing a game to see if i notice.
Of course i do, But i trip out alot on things like this, like my parents, who are not really mine, lied to me the whole time, so i put it away and pray and care for you or two, either way.
I know that you know who is the one, i can trust you like no one.
Do you see me as more than just me? does the parts of me that tend to drift make you nervous? as i said before, i take all of you, angry mad, happy sad. I watched you swim as i carved a sculpture that will be you, when its done, all of what i see, is you, with me, always, we were together today, and it was a wonderful day, you frolicked in the bay, never out of my sight, i was so content, i know it was meant to be. I watched you and you watched me. I felt you, i still do, last night at the store, you smiled so sweet i knew you werent mad anymore, i take things slow, now, i wont let go.
Baby please know, that all of this just says that i know you so well, forever it seems, and the timing willpresent itself as soon as it does. Just know that theres no one else i see, for so long its been just me, now all i see is you i let all other parts of my life go, so i can be for you, sorry if i trip you out, i feel so stressed and worn out, i need your love baby. Luv you....
Notes From The Author:
To Baby, Kissy.